Not again...

I went to chruch tonight, though, I kind of wish I would have never gotten in the car to go. I found out tonight that someone I used to trust wholeheartedly, the one person who I never thought would betray me, is spreading lies about me.

I don't get it, I just don't get it. What person in their right mind would ever say such a thing? I mean it's just Insane. You don't say stuff like that without knowing for a fact that it is true. And even if it is true, you just don't say stuff like that without at least having the person's permission.

I know I shouldn't hold it against the whole youth group, because it's not their fault, but it just reminds me of why I stopped going in the first place. I have had numerous things said about me within this past year, none of them have been complimentary. I never thought anything would hurt as bad as when I was called a witch, but I guess I was wrong.

I haven't cried over a situation in a long time, and I pray that I won't start now. I know I shouldn't be getting so worked up over this, its just that they had no right, no right, to be saying anything about me. They gave that privilage up a long time ago when they threw my friendship to the wolves.

Its times like this, I wish I had the balls enough to confront people, but I wont. In fact, I don't even know if I will ever get up the nerve to talk to them about it, ever.

I know, I'm just being silly, it just hurts so bad.